“For the gifts and the calling of God are irrevocable.” — Romans 11:29
I want to be transparent with you today because I know the power of vulnerability and the freedom it brings. It’s been months since I last shared a devotional. Truth be told I didn’t have things to say or share. It wasn’t because I no longer believed in God’s goodness—but because I stopped believing in myself. I stopped believing that He would give me the words to say after telling me to do it.
I allowed fear to paralyze me…again. I let self-doubt whisper lies into my heart, convincing me that I wasn’t capable or called to do this work. I questioned whether I was even the right person for the task. I started looking for external validation instead of seeking God’s approval. And in that place of doubt, I paused.
“For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love and a sound mind. ~2 Timothy 1:7
But I’ve realized that God’s call on my life hasn’t changed, even when I doubted it. The insecurities I felt were my own, not His. He has never given me a reason to stop believing. His faithfulness hasn’t wavered. If anything, He’s been waiting patiently for me to pick up the pen again—not for my glory, but for His.
I’ve always prayed that my writing would be for His glory, not mine. I don’t want to share just the good parts of my story, nor do I want to seek validation through likes, shares, or praise. My desire has always been to share real-life testimonials of how God has carried me through. But even in that, I found myself doubting whether I had anything worth sharing. In these last few months, God has required me to go deeper than just telling a story of my life. I have been hesitant to go there. I was stuck and I am still stuck but I am being obedient in even writing this.
The truth is, there’s an audience God has specifically called me to serve. Whether one person reads my words or a hundred, it is enough. Because if even one heart is touched, one life is encouraged to seek God wholeheartedly, walk by faith, trust Him, seek Him, want and have a relationship with Him, and know they are loved, then the purpose is fulfilled. There is an awakening that God is requiring of his people. A deeper revelation of Him and purity.
Encouragement for You:
If you’ve ever felt doubt creeping in, if you’ve ever questioned whether you’re qualified, let me remind you of this: God doesn’t call the perfect—He calls the willing. And His calling comes with the grace to fulfill it.
Yes, we’re human. We have moments of fear and insecurity. But those moments don’t disqualify us. If anything, they remind us of our need to rely on God completely.
So, I’m stepping back into this thing called writing. I’m writing again, not because I feel ready, but because I know God is with me and I want to be obedient. And I want to encourage you to do the same. Whatever God has placed on your heart, don’t let fear or doubt hold you back. Step out in faith, trusting that He will guide you every step of the way.
Let’s commit to being faithful, even in the face of uncertainty. Let’s remember that our calling, our purpose, and our obedience, are about His glory, not ours.
Closing Prayer:
Heavenly Father, thank You for Your unwavering faithfulness. Thank You for calling me and equipping me, even when I doubt myself. Lord, I surrender my insecurities to You and ask for the strength to walk boldly in the purpose You’ve given me. May my words, my actions, and my life bring glory to Your name. Help me to trust You and to obey, even when I don’t feel capable. In Jesus’ name, amen.
